Ms. Nice

Kind of tired. Tired of being nice and getting nothing in return..
Telling people happily that I am trying to help the children in need in Greece, but getting criticized that I have no clue of the situation and should not comment anything on it.
Helping others get through each and every day, but being told I'm a bad person and will get what I deserve.
What else? If I was to donate blood would someone tell me it is the wrong type and too little of it?
If I give my seat to someone on the train, would it be too uncomfortable?
Why is it that people are so self-centered? I don't have much to give but I try to do it anyway. If any of my friends need help they know I am the one to trust. At least I do my best by helping as much as I possibly can.
But this is what makes me think of people and their selfishness. I don't trust people enough to confess in them nor to ask them for help when i need it. Maybe I've had too many bad experiences with people I used to call my friends. Now I just call them "acquaintances" without them knowing it. I do have a number of great lovely friends who I will never give up. But if someone fails to keep up a friendship as it should be, I don't think it's worth it. It's not like I've never called them for no reason, or helped them with something when they needed it. But I'm done with people who contact you only when they need something. Let them try and manage by them selves. Some just need that push to see how things are when you do them all alone.
I was brought up to be an independent woman and to be helpful and friendly.

But if you don't get the same back as you give, then what's the point?

Hospital

So here I am, at the hospital in Porvoo. Waiting for my turn. I'm here for an operation.. Kinda nervous. I have not been under anestesia since I was in my teens and had my tonsils removed. I'm sitting here watching the news and all they are talking about is Nokia. Apparently they are shutting down in finland? What are we going to have to be proud of as finns if this is the deal? Angry birds?
Oh well.
I hope I'll have something else to think of when waiting for my turn. Really hate to be thinking about the needles and stuff they will be sticking on my body. I know this might sound weard, but I like being in hospitals.. People think I'm crazy but I just think it's fun being here :D ofcourse the feeling depends on why you are admitted but mostly I enjoy staying here.
At least I'm sexy in these clothes.

Zzzzz

Det är lördag och jag vaknar kl 8... Skulle nog har sovit i många timmar till men har en horribel tandvärk! Har haft de redan i ett par månader men är SÅ rädd att fara till tandläkaren då jag vet att hålet och inflammationen är i roten. Känner en hemsk böld i käkbenet och har sjukt ända ner i halsen:/ Burana800 har int nån påverkan mera så hamnar ta 2st panacod för att värket ändast MINSKAR!! Sitter nu också med en ispåse mot kinden.. Ikväll blir jag av med smärtan till några timmar iaf, då det skall drickas vin:) Och kollas på eurovisionen:)) nu ska jag fortsätta se på Billboard awards 2012 och slappa en stund ännu, sen ska ja försöka orka kratta frammgården och fixa lite på bakgården så man kan sitta där ikväll:)

Hälsningar från världens bekvämaste soffan

School's in!

Då e man läräre igen :)) idag FÅR jag vara med ettans klass! Dom är bara för härliga<3 åt dom är skolan ännu så rolig plats och dom vill lära sig nya saker:) plus att dom är extremt söta och dom respekterar auktoritet. Man orkar själv vara trevlig och pigg när man int behöver höja rösten hela tiden. Domhär sku jag kunna lära varje dag! :) Undrar bara hur jag ska kunna äta lunch redan kl 10:20 :O

Done!

Now I'm happy I cleaned:) it smells nice and I can walk barefeet again :D I hate when i step on something. Even the tiniest breadcrumb annoys me!! And I hate roccos hair being everywhere! But now the sofa is hair-free! For a day. Now some dinner..trying to follow this new diet my doctors told me to try for me to start feeling better.

Filthy

I have an urge to clean and get stuff done at home, but the urge is definately not growing by sitting on the sofa playing bejeweled blitz on my phone! I should just start but that is the biggest obsticle. When i start it actually gets quite fun...at least I hope...

Lips

Went anger-shopping today! Did not buy a lot of stuff but got me a lip-balm that I think is sooo cute! It makes me look and feel like a teen-ager but I still like it :D